After a prolonged spell under the grip of “what if’s,” I’ve broken free from the fear ingrained in us about cancer. With time, wisdom, and experience, this fear has transformed into knowledge. My focus has shifted away from “healing,” as I now understand that my body consistently moves towards it. It is the psyche that slows down and relapses the process of healing.
Any underlying resistance towards these lumps has waned, giving way to a deep embrace of their existence and a patient curiosity to delve into the wonder of my biology.
I’ve come to realize that the mind fixates on its own disturbances. Even in moments of tranquility, a single trigger can shatter my world. News of cancer-related deaths used to plunge me into hellish thoughts of a similar fate. Through awareness, I’ve learned that fear rarely springs from evidence; it’s often an escalating construction of stories that we create which subsides when we return to the present. That is why many spiritual traditions emphasize anchoring the mind in the here and now to attain peace and freedom.
By liberating the mental space consumed by this particular fear, I’ve uncovered a newfound capacity to engage with life. Fear confines experiences and taints them with a sense of finality which we have to protect ourselves from. In the wake of traumatic events such as a serious diagnosis, our responses often involve fighting, fleeing, suppressing, or, if we’re mindful, processing the intense energy by letting it go.
It’s inherent in our nature to yearn for safety, and we mold our lives around what makes us feel comfortable. However, the potent energy of fear needs to be processed, otherwise it keeps showing up whenever it is triggered. It may morph into various scenarios, yet its core remains rooted in that initial trauma.
Fear becomes a reference point for the mind as we navigate life ahead. We unwittingly design our lives around avoiding undesirable emotions and clinging to pleasurable ones, missing the inherent choice to embrace the present as a passing experience.
Our personalities often evolve to shield us from unresolved matters, even biologically according to GNM. I’ve previously detailed how trauma impacts the brain, psyche, and body in my blogs on GNM. External triggers revive stored experiences, prompting programmed responses that ensures safety—be it anxious thoughts or abnormal cell behaviour.
All emotional states can be traced back to either love or fear. Within these realms reside a spectrum of feelings. Fear breeds insecurity, lack, anxiety, depression, greed, longing and other dense vibrational frequencies. Love is our intrinsic nature, it encompasses compassion, fulfillment, happiness, peace, joy, and connection—all operating within light energetic frequencies. That is why we yearn for all expressions of love.
My lumps are undergoing a shift in behaviour; to me, this signals a positive transformation—from unchanging masses to sharp, throbbing entities tinged with deep purple. They are moving, changing shape, and altering their quality. They seem eager to burst free from my skin, and the strong sensations make their presence known. While these sensations can be intense, I find excitement in their confirmation of what I’ve learned. This excitement can only arise from the absence of fear.
My practice is to subdue and override sharp sensations by focusing my mind on the world around me and engaging with it without succumbing to fear. I make an effort to avoid using the word “pain” to prevent falling into a victim mentality and the drama that my mind can easily create. I’m my own cheerleeder saying “let’s do this! I’ve got this, I’m ready, and thank you! ” Every moment is a choice in how I want to respond to life. That is the meaning of free will. I’ve embarked on a lifelong practice to stay on the path to all that love has to give.
LESSON: LET IT GO!
This blog was inspired by the teachings of Michael Singer’s brilliant book “The Untethered Soul.”
“The NEW MEDICINE understands the body as a unified organism, a unity, with the psyche being the integrator of all functions of behaviour and all areas of conflict, and the brain being the main computer of all behavioural functions, conflict areas and organs, and the sum of the consequences of all these events. “- R.G. Hamer, MD
Dirk Hamer, son of Dr. Geerd Hamer, was shot by Emanuele of Savoy- son of the last king of Italy in 1978. Awakened in the middle of the night with the horrific news, Dr. Hamer remained in a state of shock as he attended to his dying son for 3 continual months. Within a year after their son’s death, both Dr. Hamer and his wife developed cancer. Being a doctor and a scientific researcher, he suspected that there was a correlation with the sudden death of his son and the onset of his testicular cancer and his wife’s breast cancer. Following his strong intuition, Dr. Hamer began to question what has long been accepted and taught through allopathic medicine- that disease proceeds dysfunction of the organism.
As Chief of Internal Medicine at Munich University in Germany, Dr. Hamer had 200 patients under his care and in the position to conduct research on his hypothesis. He began to survey his patients asking if they experienced a shocking, emotional event prior to their diagnosis. He called the trauma a biological-conflict-shock- a DHS, short for Dirk Hamer Syndrome in memory of his beloved son.
Dr. Hamer’s discovery was remarkable. Every single one of his patients that he interviewed did indeed suffer a DHS. After years of pursuing his research, Dr. Hamer was able to distinguish what kind of specific shock affected a particular tissue organ. Furthermore, CT scans of his patients’ brains detected extraordinary findings. In every single one them without exception, were lesions shaped in concentric circles in various locations of their brains.
The astounding factor was that each cancer type presented brain lesions with an undeniable pattern. Through studying the patterns, Dr. Hamer identified that the nature of an emotional conflict correlated to a specific area of the brain- the brainstem, cerebral medulla, cerebellum, or the cerebral cortex (ex: Ductal Carcinoma showed a lesion in the cerebral cortex paired with a “separation” conflict, lung cancer presented in the brain stem paired with a “death fright” conflict). He found the direct link between how the psyche processed trauma- to where the lesion appeared in the brain and the relay to the specific tissue organ in the body where changes took place.
40,000 case studies to date have confirmed the same pattern of disease development without exception. A highly acute, isolating, shock that catches us completely off guard triggers an instant, biological, simultaneous response in the psyche, the brain, and the corresponding organ. Dr. Hamer’s continual findings developed into the 5 Biological Laws that is the core of German New Medicine. The Laws explain the cause, the evolution, and healing phase of the dis-ease process based on natural principles. Some call it “La Medicina Sagrada” the sacred medicine or simply New Medicine-a paradigm shift from conventional medicine.
Dr. Hamer’s most important discovery is that the body responds to trauma in primal ways in an attempt to ensure our survival. Symptoms of disease although unwelcome, are actually meaningful biological changes to aid us through the conflict, the resolution and healing. For example, even though a high fever is scary, it is the process of healing for it to peak and break before the body restores its balance. Whether the tissue/organ responds to the conflict by proliferating cells (ex. tumour growth), cell loss, or by impeding function- every change proceeding a DHS is designed to improve our overall function in an emergency state. When resolution takes place and stays resolved, our perfectly designed system restores it’s balance.
While deepening my understanding of GNM, what I found most interesting is that 2 people can have the exact same type of conflict yet have symptoms in different areas of their body. Our personal perception of the conflict determines how our body responds. This is because our psyche absorbs and interprets the world through our individual experiences. What we believe in, our culture, personalities, conditioning, what we’ve been taught, what we’ve known, makes us completely unique in the way that our psyche interprets an emergency situation.
If I was to lose a loved one, the immediate primal response from my own life experience could be a separation conflict (ex. milk ducts) and for someone else, it might be an existence conflict (ex. kidneys). In GNM terms diseases are referred to SBS a “Significant Biological Special Program“. Every SBS runs in 2 phases as a development towards healing. Phase 1 being “Conflict Active” – fighter flight mode and Phase 2 which is the “Healing Phase” proceeding conflict resolution.
The SBS sometimes don’t resolve- which is what chronic disease is. The psyche continually gets triggered in a “hanging healing” and stays in an emergency state. It’s set on a track and loops in a cycle that never has the chance to resolve and heal. The length and intensity of the shock determines the size of the lesion in the brain and how symptoms present. Since healing can only happen once the conflict is resolved, GNM focuses on identifying the original conflict, the associations with the conflict, and finding a resolution specific to the individual. In essence, it’s about identifying the exact trauma and creating a liberating relationship with it.
Dr. Hamer found that when conflicts resolved permanently, cancer cells stopped growing and the extra cells broke down. Some masses that did not break down became benign and neutral. The lesion in the brain also disappeared. By understanding that “symptoms” are actually a progress towards healing, we can free ourselves from fear and work on completing the SBS.
The greatest fear with cancer is that it will spread like wildfire and render you terminal. The idea of malfunctioning cells breaking off my tumour and hitching a ride through the blood/ lymph to randomly land in a completely different body part didn’t make any sense to me. Not to mention having the ability to cross over to a different germ layer. Even though my rational mind could thwarted that fear, it still existed in varying degrees depending on what kind of day I was having. It’s a collective fear that has been fed to us from every angle and it’s mighty powerful.
Dr. Hamer scrutinized the metastasis theory with common sense. Why, if cancer spreads through the blood/lymph didn’t it primarily spread from the affected organ to the surrounding tissue? Shouldn’t cervical cancer spread to the uterus next? Why doesn’t everybody who has cancer have Leukaemia if it spreads through the blood? If cancer cells travel through the blood stream why isn’t donated blood screened for cancer? If cancer spreads through the lymph system, why does it develop in the bones where it is not supplied by lymph fluid? How is it that cancer cells can bypass the blood-brain-barrier that is specifically there to protect against invaders? We don’t ever hear of a brain tumour spreading to an organ but only the other way around…why is that?
The metastasis theory discounts the fact that all cells in the body is fist controlled by the brain. It is assumed that rogue cells are doing it’s own thing without the electrical impulses sent by our control center which is the basis of every cellular function. Even reports from Yale University in 2008 declared “How cancer cells become metastatic still remains a mystery”.
Dr. Hamer did not believe that cancer “spreads”. His discoveries indicate that malignancies are separate shocks and separate SBSes. Unfortunately, the shock of a life-threatening diagnosis could be a DHS. Nobody is ever prepared for a cancer diagnosis… The scary options of invasive therapies, the fear of dying, the loss of life as we know it, the loss of what we value in ourselves, carrying life responsibilities with a disease, worry for our loved ones…all translates to our system as an emergency to be managed.
Truth rings like a bell- it rings so clear that the reverberation dissolves all the gunk out of the way. My mind was blown into pieces and put back together again to form a clear picture. Everything I was learning from GNM reflected what I intrinsically knew all along. My body wasn’t falling apart and failing me…it was healing. I was determined to discover the exact conflict that started my program and help it along to finish what was started.
LESSON: Readers, I’d like to emphasize that this is my personal experience. Every therapy, every idea, every belief that resonates with me sustains me. I’m no expert in anything I write about. I’m just an expert on myself and whatever upholds my pillar of strength is what I go by. I choose to live fully- without the ghost of cancer haunting me. This is how I’m doing it.
LESSONS FROM MY LUMP 